Goodbye 2011.

Its the last day of the year:) any surprises? :D its been a great year. No doubt. A year full of surprises. Coolness. Awesomeness. Ups n downs. Challenges. Happiness.

2011. The year that started so badly because of a broken heart. So fragile we can be when our heart breaks:') The year i survived my break up. Not easy but Hey at least im much more stronger than before!:) The year i got my first ever dslr! The year i went phototaking n visiting wit ting n ern in kellie's castle, n wit pohteng to teluk intan.
The year i graduated. The year i experience one of the proudest moment of my life! ;D The year i went bac wit ting to kp for phototaking session ryte b4 our graduation day. The year i left the good old kampar, my independent life. The year i had my last exam for the year, or rather, ever. :))The year me ting n ern went travel around the country, epo-> penang-> taiping. Total awesomeness! XD The year me n hsmates went 2 bkt merah together n ended up staying in taiping so randomly! The year my family of bears moved to kl. The year i got my first ever job! Not easy huh the real working world out there, its scary man! The year i met biao gor, an awesome boss n fren. The year my supervisor left so immediately because of sum arguement and had me dumped wit all the half done work. Boohoo:(( The year i broke down in dpc park while joging because i felt so lost, so confused about life. The year i befriended a philipino, kyla, who was a great company, my drama partner. High 5 gal! The year i first  screwed up n got it from the directors. T-T cried so much in office! The year i broke down because i was lost in directions, whether is in r'ship or in work. The year i went for my first ever camp outdoor, wit no toilet! The year i went sic rym camp, wher i met so many new awesome friends! The year i got close to ronni dear. The year i had so much fun yum cha wit my animal frens, ngao2 n dabenxiang. The year i went clubbing for the very first time. The year i learned how to drink xD The year i got my first ever smartphone! Yay:] The year we once again went genting with our family friend, the teoh's, too bad the choong's cant join us. 

Reminiscing back to the good old times, the many bumps i bumped into, the amt of tears i dropped, the many challenges that came knocking at my door, not to forget the many awesome moments i had together with my beloved family of bears n friends! Im forever thankful. Just them being part of my life, whether it's just passing by at the cross roads or staying for a while, its more than i can ask for. Thank u thank u thank u, 2011. For the precious memories that has been created for this entire year. Priceless! It shall forever be kept n treasured in my dear heart.<3

Its been another awesome year. 
Goodbye 2011. 
U'll be greatly missed:'')

U kno u love me, 
Coz i relly relly do, 
Still do, always will, 
Forever n ever, 
Xoxo. 

Island of Feelings ♥

Once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; 

Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others....including Love. 

One day it was announced to all of the feelings that the 

island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. 

So all the feelings prepared their boats to leave. 

Love was the only one that stayed. 

She wanted to preserve the island until the last possible moment. 

When the island was almost totally under, 

Love decided it was time to leave. 

She began looking for someone to ask for help. 

Just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. 

Love asked, "Richness, Can I come with you on your boat?" 

Richness answered, "I'm sorry, but there is a lot of silver and gold on my boat and there would be no room for you." 

Then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. 

Love cried out, "Vanity, help me please." 

I can't help you", Vanity said, 

"You are all wet and will damage my beautiful boat." 

Next, Love saw Sadness passing by. 

Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with you." 

Sadness answered, "Love, I'm sorry, but, I just need to be alone now." 

Then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, 

"Happiness, please take me with you." 

But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him. 

Love began to cry. Then, she heard a voice say, 

"Come Love, I will take you with me." It was an elder. 

Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived on land the elder went on his way. 

Love realized how much she owed the elder. 

Love then found Knowledge and asked, "Who was it that helped me?" 

"It was Time", Knowledge answered. "But why did Time help me when no one else would?", Love asked. 

Knowledge smiled and with deep wisdom and sincerity, answered, 

"Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

-Best Quotes, 2011-

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do,  

stil do, always will, 

forever and ever, 

xoxo. ♥♥

8 days to christmas

8 more days to christmas! 

 *mmmuuaaahh* Spread the love people!

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do, 

stil do, always will

forever n ever, 

xoxo.

my family of bears ♥

INTRODUCING..... *drum rolls*

♥ My family of BEARS ♥

oohhh, just looooovvveee mah familie :D 

okok, this was suppose to be an old post, since 2 weeks back when we were back in epo for the weekend :)) 

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do, 

still do, always will, 

forever n ever, 

xoxo. ♥♥

Camping Trip @ Templer's Park, Rawang.

went for a camping trip in Templer's Park organised by the SIC youth group last week on Sat n Sun. i didn't want to go at first, since I had a late night on Friday, got a lil drunk. :D anyways, dragged myself up that Saturday morning around 7, packed my clothes there n then, bath n washed my hair, grap a few more things, and off i go for camping! met up in church and took a bus ther. Reached our destination and started hiking up the hill. Took around 45 min to hike to our camp side. And as lucky as I was, the bloodsucker got me! leech went up my leg and was in the verge of sucking my blood when i found out and got it outta my skin just in time! fuhhhh, that was close!! XD

NEways, reached camp side, jump into the waterfall! weeeee, coooling :D had a few games, ate instant noodles cooked by uncle francis haha and sang around the camp fire. ohhhh, it was just sooo awesome! not to forget the mafia (or shud i say werewolf?) we played, coolnesss killing ppl in the dark! :D 

Okay okay, enuf of the stories, pictures, pictures!

 there were approx 17 of us ther. just the right size for a camping trip :) 

 camping ground 

 the pretty ladies :)) 

 the freeezing waterfall 

 during one of the games session - convey mes using certain codes 

 another one of the games we had, we were to transfer the clothes among our team members 

rejoicing in the Lord :)) 

 dancing n singing around the campfire 

food we had during the camp, with the eggs, honey, sausages and bread

group photo <3 

on the way down hill, i guess i got lucky again, the bloodsucker really got me this time... sucked my blood all the way down hill and left a mark on my leg... ewww right i kno, they could have had at least edward to do it...hahaa, kidding la not a big fan of edward oso, im team JACOB!! :D anyways, was an awesome trip with awesome people yet again. enjoyed my weekend to the fullest!  

kays, gotta go, have a great evening peeps, God bless us all :)) Adios love!

u kno u love me, 
coz i relly relly do, 
still do, always will, 
forever n ever, 
xoxo. ♥♥

christmas, just around the corner :))

welcome back to my blogging world peeps, its been awhile. :))  

It's already December and Christmas is just around the corner. aaaahhh, i just love christmas, it kindda gives me the feeling of peace, and lotsa amazing nights to come! not to forget all the christmas carols! aww, love the songs! see im already humming it! xD plus plus, what I really love about this celebration is going to shopping mails and seeing all the tall tall Christmas trees that never failed to amaze me! :)) 

Thinking back, time passes really really fast. So many things as happened since then, especially these 2 years. Its been such an amazing year, with such amazing people. Some came, some went, some came back, but some didn't. I guess people come and go right? :))

merry merry christmas bear <3 

You kno you love me, 

coz i relly relly do
still do, always will,
forever n ever,
xoxo. ♥

blessed 21 years of life :))

there goes my 21 years of life. :)) yea, 9 November, 21 years ago was the day i was officially introduced to this beautiful world. Amen to that! Thinking back, life has been so interesting hasn't it been? *winks*

well, well, right here right now, I would like to express my sincere appreciation and gratefulness to all you people out there, those who walked passed my journey of life, whether we bump into each other at the crossroads, a T-junction, a traffic light, rocky roads, steep hills, a bump, or even at a U-Turn?? Just getting to know you guys has been such a pleasure. I'm forever thankful for that. :)) 

okok, straight to the point, "thank you thank you thank you" all for everything, for the never ending memories with each and everyone of u guys, for brightening up my life, for making my life full of laughter n joy, for being there for me whenever I needed you (specially to my besties out ther, ex-housmaties, as well as my love ones ♥)  oh, n for those who took their time, money n heart out just to spend time with me on my birthday. Thank u :))

1. Lunchie with sis 

 awww, ain't she adorable~♥ thanks for the treat n ur lil pressie sis :))

2. Dinner with BNI members 

 this was a real surprise for me! an angry bird cake :) special thanks to Kumaran & Trisha ♥

3. Movie "Tower Heist" with sis 

wwooo, its so dark n cold inside! :D 

4. next day, lunchie on my dear boss :)) @ Sushi Ichiban 1 Utama

 tempura

 beef set

 fish set

fried octopus

dessert of the day: mango crepe ♥

5. Yesterday, out lunchie with mama bear @ de Pastry :)) 

chocolate cuppocino cake & Blueberry cheese cake

6. At night, SS2 Murni with Ting :))

 claypot lou shu fun

tomyam soup! love the spicy-ness!

my first time there, and the place was packed with people! :D 

*Had such great time with u, yes you love! :D 

u kno u love me, 

coz i really relly do

still do, always will 

forever & ever,

xoxo. ♥♥

so near, yet so far.

sometimes, the best way people express themselves is by drawing. :))

u kno u love me, 

still do, always will

forever & ever, 

xoxo.

pissed off. life. no fair.

life has once again proved itself that it is unfair, so unfair. great, there goes my day. Sigh. Whats the story? well, its complicated. but to cut the freakingdarn story short, my supervisor and boss had a problem with each other, it was okay for like 1 & 1/2 years until last week when both the volcano erupted. n to make things worst, the supervisor resign and there goes my load of work. most of her work become my work. that okay, what really pissed me off is when she hand over all the documents to me, its all messed up, like seriously fooking messed up. One here one there, documents, papers, letters, all not filed properly. i mean how the faaaaaarrrrkkk m i suppose to sort all these fooooking documents? its gonna take me ages wey, u tink im some foooking super hero or what? I'm no super women kay?

Gawd, what the heck man, u have a problem with him you let it out on him la, i mean seriously why the fook are u letting it out on me by giving me these whole load of work? i mean no offense lady, but halo? i have feelings tooo, dun use my kind goody goody personality to take advantage of me, dun fooking bully me please! aarrrrrggghh, pissed off..! my patients has its limits gurl!

*&^&^%#$^(@*#$(*@#$&@#^%$(#&*^$*&#^%$*^%$*&@#($*#@($&^*&
*apologies for my choice of words, sometimes its just unavoidable..

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do,

still do, always will

forever & ever,

xoxo.

unexpected happens.

the unexpected happens. yet again. it could be good, it could be bad, but it's definitely unexpected.

currently playing: thank God I found you~♥- Mariah Carey (ur girlfrend) :))

u kno u love me, 

coz i really relly do

still do, always will 

forever & ever,

xoxo. ♥♥

Of Screwdrivers, Hammers, & Driller

Had such a busy weekend with my new toys! screwdrivers, hammers, driller… not to forget the many screws, pipes, hammer, nails, pliers, blade…etc. well, for those of u who are wondering why in the world am I playing with all these “interesting” toys, it’s because I’m moving house! :)) moving from my current apartment in Nova to a double story house. Dad bought a house nearby the area, and mama bear’s moving down. Ipoh house will still be around, I guess we’ll seldom go back to Ipoh ady, probably twice a month? 

Anyways, back to playing with my toys, was in the new house these 2 days helping dad to fix certain things (i.e. curtain rail, toilet tap piping, glass shelf, mirrors…etc. where they all require drilling) since the contractor is progressing in such minor speed! Hhhhmm, am so feeling like a contractor/plumber’s daughter…! xD 

Seeing dad working so hard, in terms of juggling so many things all together (coping with work stress, renovation contractor problem, new house so many things not done yet, controlling the finances, paying for renovation, monthly household bills, buying furniture and electrical stuffs 4 new house, what with paying for mama bear’s medical bills and worrying about my mum’s health) I really do salute u dad! Really seeing him going through all these things makes me appreciate him more. I’m so thankful to have such an awesome dad! I mean seriously, being a breadwinner of the family ain’t that easy at all. We won’t really know, unless we’re at his place, taking care of the entire family and coping with whatever challenges that comes in the way. And all we children know is to complain complain and complain. In terms of finances, we just receive allowance, spend spend and spend. I mean how spoiled can we be nowadays? *shakes head, feeling guilty*

Papa bear, I just gotta say this. Thank you Thank you Thank you! For all that you have done for me and our wonderful family. Words cannot describe how thankful I am to have u as my father. You are my one and only hero I would always look up to. Stay strong, as you always have been and I love you so much! God be with you! 

 my dad, my hero. :))

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do,

still do, always will

forever & ever,

xoxo. ♥♥

freaking out.. should i be worried?

好怕哦...怎么办...?

Got a call from sis just now. Mama bear not feeling well again... Needs to go for another check up, her stomach still hurts, somehow, on & off, dunno why. oh gawd, please don't let anything happen to her. Should I be worried? or is that normal after the appendix operation? :S 

u kno u love me, 

coz i really really do, 

stil do, always will, 

forever & ever, 

xoxo. ♥♥

you are the apple of my eye ♥

I was reading this Chinese book,

《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》,  "you are the apple of my eye"♥

and I came across this verse that i really really like :))

    “我想当一个很厉害的人。”我说，精简扼要。

"I want to be a great person."

   是啊，很厉害的人。

   “真的是有够模糊的，有讲和没讲一样啊。”阿和幽幽吐槽。

   “不过，要怎么定义厉害和不厉害？”许志彰问的倒是有些认真。

   我没有多想，因为答案我早已放在心底了。

   所谓的厉害，就是...... 

    my "GREAT" is... 

   “让这个世界，因为有了我，会有一点点差别。”

"I want the world to have a little difference, because of me." 

   我没有看着星星。我不需要。

   我是看着沈佳仪的眼睛，慢慢说出那句话的。

    ......而我的世界，不过就是你的心。

        ......and my world, is your heart.

awwww, sweet ♥ 

p/s: its a rainy cold nite, grabs fuzz hugs him tite tite. me love u! *mmuuaaahh*

u kno u love me, 

coz i really really do, 

stil do, 

always n forever, 

xoxo.♥♥

that moment, when i lost hope.

昨天, 当我在公园慢跑, 不知道怎么突然间哭了起来... 哭红了眼... 


为什么? 我用English说吧... 


I Suddenly felt as though "i'm lost". 
seriously lost, like in the middle of no where. 
I felt I don't know what I want, what I'm searching for, what I want to achieve in life. 
it suddenly felt as though my life is so meaningless. 
我到底想要什么? 


It's just Monday to Friday, go work, after work, eat dinner, sleep, sometimes go gym,  exercise, that's it. Period. Nothing more than that. No outing, no hanging out with friends, no activities, no entertainment. NOTHING! How boring can I be right?
难到我的生活就那么无趣吗?


Carreer wise, I dunno what I really want to achieve, I dunno what i'm really passionate about. I'm not sure whether I'm in love with my job or not. What's my goal? Plans for the future?
我的梦想到底是什么? 


Friends wise, I don't have many. Only a hand full that I can really count on, but they're all far far away. I don't have a bestie, it fact I never had one my entire life. Pathetic right i kno. 
我怎么都没有好朋友呢?


Relationship wise, I suck so badly in this. My first didt work out, i did't get to be with the one i loved for some reasons, the next well distance distance.... sigh, it never was a good ending. I don't even know who I love any more... 
感情方面我真的那么没有缘分吗?


Life aint that easy after all, aint it? 
生活根本就不容易嘛! 讨厌! 


我望着天, 自言自语的在说出我的烦恼... 
说完了, 我闭上眼睛, 冷静下来, 深呼吸, 才发觉我的心跳这么快... 
我的心几乎在跟我说, "hey, u're very much alive, go out there n have the time of ur life! don't waste time bragging or mumbling about how sucky life can be, life is full of shitty moments, but its also fill with happy moments, no? it's all up to us to decide whether we want to be happy or not! so cheer up, I'll continue beating hard in you, and all u've got to do is BE STRONG and face whatever it is to come. u can do it! Fight! 


哭完了, 哭够了, 心情好多了, 该时候回家了... :)) 


p/s: i miss u so much bear, *looks at fuzz* "u're all i have now.." 

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do

still do, always will, forever 

xoxo.  ♥

i'm sorry, i love you.

Thru our ups and downs, happy moments sad moments crappy moments sucky moments disappointing moments crazee moments to this day, thinking about the millions of memories we created over the many years we knew each other, i truly am greatful to have you.

Thank you thank you thank you. for always being there for me, thru my thick and thin. Specially when i needed you the most, somehow u just appear. :)) you've seen me thru it all, from the time i smile to the time i cry like shit in your car, oh darn, i can't hide anything from you can I? 

I'm sorry, i love you. 

But... 

........................

....................................

.....................................................

...........................................................

..................

........

I choose to let you go.

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do

still do, always will, forever 

xoxo.

of Graduation and awesomeness ♥

GRADUATION.  

11th SEPTEMBER 2011 Just went through the proudest moments of my life. The feeling was overwhelming, indescribable, total awesomness! My heart was beating so fast when i walked out into the hall. Damn, that felt gooood!

well, I would like to thank a few people from the bottom of my heart. So here goes, 

DAD & MAMA Bear, 

Thank you thank you thank you. for always being there for me, constantly providing me with your support and guidance whenever I needed you the most. Thinking back, you guys were always the ones who were there, especially when i fall, cry, when i was in the verge of giving up, when i was sad, disappointed, or forgotten the word "hope" even existed, whether its in my studies, my friends, or in life. Thank you for constantly reminding me, and providing me with your words of wisdom, never failing to comfort me and placing this lil hope in me, especially you mama bear, i'll always remember what you told me, "Tomorrow will be a better day, my lil princess". =)) awww, i love you so much! dad you too, u're my hero! Well, guess what, time flies huh?? in a blink of an eye, ur lil princess has graduated! i mean like "WOW"! that's fast, right?? xD without you guys, there wont be my today, there won't even be me at all. so from the bottom of heart, i would like to sincerely give a big shout out to both of u out ther, THANK YOU again! *bows in front of dad & mama bear, grabs them both and hugs them tite tite*  

SiS,

you're always the one that i look up to, in many ways... especially in my studies. u were always the one i cry out to and comes to my rescue whenever i get lost in my studies. thank u thank u babe, for guiding me thru it all, and supporting me all the way, throughout my whole uni life. Thank u also for your advice, ur care, ur hugs n kisses and most importantly ur sister love! haha... appreciated very muchy! :))

Housematies & roomaties, 

babes, u guys, THANK u too, for being there thru it all, especially the SHITTY moments... u guys kno me well, im sure u kno almost everthing about me ady, from head to toe, every single good and bad moments that happened to me thruout my uni life. Thanks for just being there, it means so much to me.. i really do appreciate the times we had together, whether its playing badminton, eating at tomato ketchup, checking out cute guys, goin for random trips, singing our hearts out in kbox or wateverbox u call it, and the list goes on, u name it, we've done so many crazee unimaginable things rite? xD

hearts u guys ♥ thanks again yk & wenz for the teddy bear & chocolates ♥ xoxo

Yen Ern, 

thank u also for everything gal! especially for lending me ur ears whenever i needed them. i enjoyed every single moment with u, whether its me kutuk-ing u, talking to u, doing crappy assignments, studying, makan, play badminton with u, having classes together... im already missing those times! xD anyways, hugs hugs hugs to u!

Weiting, 

u were the first person i got to kno when i went in UTAR. The first person who offered and ask to be assignment mate with. haha! i too enjoyed the lil moments we had, the times when we did assignments till late at nite, the times we go crazee, the times we cam whore so much, the times we cook and makan together, the times we play badminton together! Thank u thank u thank u dear! m so glad to have known u :))

Anyways, a big THANK u to everyone out ther for being part of my life. Every single one of you that has walk through my life, whether we met at the crossroad, or T-junction or across the road... i truly thank u, and appreciate each of u guys. :))

also, one last note to some1 who once meant so much to me... Bear, thank u for everything, and i'm glad that we met, no regrets at all :)) hope u r doing great, and take care ya? =))

as we go on, we remember, 

all the times we had together 

as our life change, come whatever, 

we will still be, 

♥ FRIENDS FOREVER ♥

u kno u love me, 
coz i relly relly do, 
stil do, always will, 
forever & ever, 

xoxo. ♥