so near, yet so far.

sometimes, the best way people express themselves is by drawing. :))

u kno u love me, 

still do, always will

forever & ever, 

xoxo.

pissed off. life. no fair.

life has once again proved itself that it is unfair, so unfair. great, there goes my day. Sigh. Whats the story? well, its complicated. but to cut the freakingdarn story short, my supervisor and boss had a problem with each other, it was okay for like 1 & 1/2 years until last week when both the volcano erupted. n to make things worst, the supervisor resign and there goes my load of work. most of her work become my work. that okay, what really pissed me off is when she hand over all the documents to me, its all messed up, like seriously fooking messed up. One here one there, documents, papers, letters, all not filed properly. i mean how the faaaaaarrrrkkk m i suppose to sort all these fooooking documents? its gonna take me ages wey, u tink im some foooking super hero or what? I'm no super women kay?

Gawd, what the heck man, u have a problem with him you let it out on him la, i mean seriously why the fook are u letting it out on me by giving me these whole load of work? i mean no offense lady, but halo? i have feelings tooo, dun use my kind goody goody personality to take advantage of me, dun fooking bully me please! aarrrrrggghh, pissed off..! my patients has its limits gurl!

*&^&^%#$^(@*#$(*@#$&@#^%$(#&*^$*&#^%$*^%$*&@#($*#@($&^*&
*apologies for my choice of words, sometimes its just unavoidable..

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do,

still do, always will

forever & ever,

xoxo.

unexpected happens.

the unexpected happens. yet again. it could be good, it could be bad, but it's definitely unexpected.

currently playing: thank God I found you~♥- Mariah Carey (ur girlfrend) :))

u kno u love me, 

coz i really relly do

still do, always will 

forever & ever,

xoxo. ♥♥

Of Screwdrivers, Hammers, & Driller

Had such a busy weekend with my new toys! screwdrivers, hammers, driller… not to forget the many screws, pipes, hammer, nails, pliers, blade…etc. well, for those of u who are wondering why in the world am I playing with all these “interesting” toys, it’s because I’m moving house! :)) moving from my current apartment in Nova to a double story house. Dad bought a house nearby the area, and mama bear’s moving down. Ipoh house will still be around, I guess we’ll seldom go back to Ipoh ady, probably twice a month? 

Anyways, back to playing with my toys, was in the new house these 2 days helping dad to fix certain things (i.e. curtain rail, toilet tap piping, glass shelf, mirrors…etc. where they all require drilling) since the contractor is progressing in such minor speed! Hhhhmm, am so feeling like a contractor/plumber’s daughter…! xD 

Seeing dad working so hard, in terms of juggling so many things all together (coping with work stress, renovation contractor problem, new house so many things not done yet, controlling the finances, paying for renovation, monthly household bills, buying furniture and electrical stuffs 4 new house, what with paying for mama bear’s medical bills and worrying about my mum’s health) I really do salute u dad! Really seeing him going through all these things makes me appreciate him more. I’m so thankful to have such an awesome dad! I mean seriously, being a breadwinner of the family ain’t that easy at all. We won’t really know, unless we’re at his place, taking care of the entire family and coping with whatever challenges that comes in the way. And all we children know is to complain complain and complain. In terms of finances, we just receive allowance, spend spend and spend. I mean how spoiled can we be nowadays? *shakes head, feeling guilty*

Papa bear, I just gotta say this. Thank you Thank you Thank you! For all that you have done for me and our wonderful family. Words cannot describe how thankful I am to have u as my father. You are my one and only hero I would always look up to. Stay strong, as you always have been and I love you so much! God be with you! 

 my dad, my hero. :))

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do,

still do, always will

forever & ever,

xoxo. ♥♥

freaking out.. should i be worried?

好怕哦...怎么办...?

Got a call from sis just now. Mama bear not feeling well again... Needs to go for another check up, her stomach still hurts, somehow, on & off, dunno why. oh gawd, please don't let anything happen to her. Should I be worried? or is that normal after the appendix operation? :S 

u kno u love me, 

coz i really really do, 

stil do, always will, 

forever & ever, 

xoxo. ♥♥

you are the apple of my eye ♥

I was reading this Chinese book,

《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》,  "you are the apple of my eye"♥

and I came across this verse that i really really like :))

    “我想当一个很厉害的人。”我说，精简扼要。

"I want to be a great person."

   是啊，很厉害的人。

   “真的是有够模糊的，有讲和没讲一样啊。”阿和幽幽吐槽。

   “不过，要怎么定义厉害和不厉害？”许志彰问的倒是有些认真。

   我没有多想，因为答案我早已放在心底了。

   所谓的厉害，就是...... 

    my "GREAT" is... 

   “让这个世界，因为有了我，会有一点点差别。”

"I want the world to have a little difference, because of me." 

   我没有看着星星。我不需要。

   我是看着沈佳仪的眼睛，慢慢说出那句话的。

    ......而我的世界，不过就是你的心。

        ......and my world, is your heart.

awwww, sweet ♥ 

p/s: its a rainy cold nite, grabs fuzz hugs him tite tite. me love u! *mmuuaaahh*

u kno u love me, 

coz i really really do, 

stil do, 

always n forever, 

xoxo.♥♥

that moment, when i lost hope.

昨天, 当我在公园慢跑, 不知道怎么突然间哭了起来... 哭红了眼... 


为什么? 我用English说吧... 


I Suddenly felt as though "i'm lost". 
seriously lost, like in the middle of no where. 
I felt I don't know what I want, what I'm searching for, what I want to achieve in life. 
it suddenly felt as though my life is so meaningless. 
我到底想要什么? 


It's just Monday to Friday, go work, after work, eat dinner, sleep, sometimes go gym,  exercise, that's it. Period. Nothing more than that. No outing, no hanging out with friends, no activities, no entertainment. NOTHING! How boring can I be right?
难到我的生活就那么无趣吗?


Carreer wise, I dunno what I really want to achieve, I dunno what i'm really passionate about. I'm not sure whether I'm in love with my job or not. What's my goal? Plans for the future?
我的梦想到底是什么? 


Friends wise, I don't have many. Only a hand full that I can really count on, but they're all far far away. I don't have a bestie, it fact I never had one my entire life. Pathetic right i kno. 
我怎么都没有好朋友呢?


Relationship wise, I suck so badly in this. My first didt work out, i did't get to be with the one i loved for some reasons, the next well distance distance.... sigh, it never was a good ending. I don't even know who I love any more... 
感情方面我真的那么没有缘分吗?


Life aint that easy after all, aint it? 
生活根本就不容易嘛! 讨厌! 


我望着天, 自言自语的在说出我的烦恼... 
说完了, 我闭上眼睛, 冷静下来, 深呼吸, 才发觉我的心跳这么快... 
我的心几乎在跟我说, "hey, u're very much alive, go out there n have the time of ur life! don't waste time bragging or mumbling about how sucky life can be, life is full of shitty moments, but its also fill with happy moments, no? it's all up to us to decide whether we want to be happy or not! so cheer up, I'll continue beating hard in you, and all u've got to do is BE STRONG and face whatever it is to come. u can do it! Fight! 


哭完了, 哭够了, 心情好多了, 该时候回家了... :)) 


p/s: i miss u so much bear, *looks at fuzz* "u're all i have now.." 

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do

still do, always will, forever 

xoxo.  ♥