Friendship?

whatever happen to this thing called friendship? to this thing they always say, "friends are friends forever"? sometimes i wonder.

have you ever been let down, betrayed, totally ignored by ur friends before? whether is that tiny little mistake you made or maybe not even your mistake/problem? ever been filled with disappointment, frustration, anger, sadness with this thing called "friends"?

you see, i've had quite a few experiences like that before, whether its in a "cool, lets just forget what happened" and we made up in the end situation or its in an "awkward" situation, or maybe in a "we're never gonna talk let alone look at you" situation...?? gawd this is frustrating.

I'm just gonna rant out over here maybe just a lil coz i just gotta get this off my chest. Thinking back at my life and this friends thingy that i have been through, so many had happened. and sometimes this can be real tiring. the frustration, the disappointment, that "feeling"... i dunno how exactly to put that in words... but yah, shit happens, sometimes you may think that they're your bestest friends in the whole wide world, but in the end they turn their backs on you and act like total strangers. sucks i know, specially when it happens with your close friends. As much as your insides are fighting and refusing to admit that this is bugging you, its the total opposite. I'm saying i don't care, it doesn't matter but the truth is, its bugging the hell outta me.

but why? its like the person that you're close to, the only person that you never expect them to do this just did it right at your face. like BAM! reality strikes. damn it.  you're down on the ground. suck it up gurl, that life. however loud your insides are screaming lifes unfair, life still goes on. they live on with or without you, and so do you. :((

but why...?

we gain friends, we lose friends along the journey of life, and it just happens.even if we made up and become friends again, that feeling... it'll never be the same again. :/

we begin as strangers, and here we are, strangers yet again.  (just like in a relationship.)

dear teddy bear, will you be my best friend? 

*currenly tuned into: "taller, stronger, and better" by guy sebastian. 

u kno u love me, 

coz i relly relly do, 

still do, always will, 

forever and ever, 

xoxo. ♥♥