人生就是不停的战斗！

怎么办， 突然觉得好累好累。 生活好没意思了。 怎么会有这种感觉呢？ 讨厌。

当一个人，尤其是当一个人很寂寞的时候，一定会乱想，想很多。越想越烦恼， 越想越不开心。 不管在工作， 爱情，友情， 生活的每一个上上下下，一想到这些，好烦啊！ 救命啊！ 熊妈妈不是每次说 “明天会更好吗”？怎么每天都一样啊？都没改变嘛。。。

工作。 每天都起床，工作，放工，回家， 吃饭，累，早睡觉。一天一天的这样过，工作每一天做一样的东西，好没意思喔。我真的真的很不喜欢现在的工哦，这根本就不是我要做的工嘛，根本就不是我的梦想。 越做越不开心。💔 怎么中学大学都没教这些呢？怎么都没有给我们一个方向，走向我们的未来呢？怎么都没给我们一个心里准备，去 验试真正外面残忍的世界呢？过了这几年，才发现， 我呢，就是很喜欢画画。所以呢，我打算回去读书，读multimedia design这一行。这才是我真真要的。不反悔了，现在不走向那方向，我永远就不走了，人都渐渐累了，老了， 难到到时才打算？不可能啦，有机会就冲，还年轻嘛。不管了，我要冲向我的梦想了，替我加油好吗？

爱情。 远距离爱情好喘哦。很多时侯，总觉的好寂寞，见不到他，摸不到他，伤心时他没在，要抱抱时他没在，想见他他不在，想找人谈天他只在电话。尤其是当我一个人在家， 家里那么大，一个人孤零零的，有一点害怕哦， 可是很多时侯我的寂寞当然比我的害怕多得很哦。喔告诉你，很多人啊， 我亲爱的朋友们，都说远距离爱情都不会成功，那种感觉，听了，好难受哦。我知道他们是为我好，可是你就不给我是其中一百万里成功的那一个吗？我好想好想要坚持下去呢！我希望我能忍，我能坚强，我能度过这一切。所以，每次乱想的时候，要逼自己，想好的，想＋ve 的， 不要弄到自己那么的不开心。相信未来会更好。可爱的我，加油吧！

P/S: 笑一笑, 生活更美妙。

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

An Open Letter To My Ex: How A Best Friend Becomes A Stranger

Hey there, stranger.

It’s been a very long time, which I’m sure you’re aware of. I’d like to say that it was your decision alone to keep this distance, but I think we both know it was for the best. I’d like to say that I’m glad you are well, but as we both know I have absolutely no idea how you are. The one thing that can definitely be said is that when we cut ties, we leave no strand behind, but slice right through until we no longer remember how to find each other. It’s amazing to think that once we were inseparable, the best of friends.

You knew me inside and out, and I, you. We were there for each other in the best of times and through the most difficult of times. We definitely managed to put each other through hell on occasion, but when support was needed the most, support was given. Until, of course, that final day. I sometimes find myself wondering why we couldn’t stay in touch. Would it be so bad if we got together for coffee from time to time? Or if we gave each other a ring to see how the other was doing?

Using the phone to make calls has become archaic, but surely we could send a text to wish each other a happy birthday? Or a happy New Year? I mean, we’ve been through so much. You are a part of my life and there is nothing I can do to ever change that.

You can’t be forgotten because forgetting you would be like forgetting myself — impossible. But then again, maybe you are right. Maybe we are better off as far apart as possible. We know we aren’t right for each other. We know it would never work, and we know the friendship we have — we had — created a bond that would make slipping back into romance too easy. It would make repeating the same mistakes too likely, repeating the same heartbreak certain. That’s what it really comes down to: It’s not my heart that I’m worried about, but yours. Breaking my own heart would be my responsibility to bear, but I can’t once again be responsible for breaking yours.

So all that I can do is wish you the best. Wish you a great, bright, loving future. Wish you to find the lover of your dreams and to create a lifetime of your fantasies. I wish for you to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner. One who won’t drag you through the mud. One who you won’t feel the need to bury with guilt. I wish you all the best and although you will never read this, although we will never speak to each other again, and although you are out of my life forever, I wish you nothing short of happiness.

Never again to be yours, 

Your Lost Best Friend

*taken from elite daily.

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

Inspire. Dream. Believe.

Inspire. Dream. Believe. 

sometimes somethings are worth getting your hands all dirty. 

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

Pray for MH370

where are you? its been days, the whole world is looking for you. you can't just disappear into thin air, right..? :/

My prayers and thoughts goes out to those who are in mh370 and to your love ones!
hang in there. be safe. we'll get to you!

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

Kampar baybeh!

made a trip to kampar for wendy and alex's graduation last weekend. boy i seriously miss that place. so peaceful, so relax, so calm, so... much memories :/ but! it was a good trip.

graduation teddy

such nice scenery they have there over in kampar. :) minus the hot weather and the haze though :/ meh. its everywhere.. 

visited mr.confucious and mr Einstein. and as usual they were battling each other in a game of chess!

 the temple-rish university hall 

had a good chat with one of my fren liew who went to kampar with me. chatted about life, about work, people, and most importantly, future. when i kick back and think about it, i realised i kindda unconsciously blurted out whatever that has been worrying me, my plans for the future especially, which i've been avoiding lately. been telling liew to start planning and what not for his future, but here I am not doing a thing, but urging others, people surrounding me to do something, make a move, take the first step. that i hate myself for. gaah.. i gotta move myself outta the darning comfort zone, and aint no one's gonna help me in this. i gotta do this myself. and i need my friends called confidence, courage and determination.

be brave. be bold. live your dream.  

we're all in this together, are we not? ;)

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

Happy Birthday Mama Bear

Happy Mappy Birthday Mama Bear! :)

thank you for your unconditional love for me.
thank you for your constant guidance and support for me.
thank you for your care and protection all these while.
thank you for your prayers for me.
thank you for being my one in a million mama bear.

I love you, mama bear.

my happy ohana of bears 

I wish you, JESUS.

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

i wanna get into the arts!

gaaah, like what the topic says, i really really really really really wanna get into the arts. teach me tell me how? i really wanna learn stuffs relating to drawing arts, graphics, illustrator, photoshop, animation, etc etc... but how? i don't even have the basic knowledge about this. and thus i would have to study to learn all these and at least get a degree in this line? and degree requires at least 3 years! am i too old for it? plus plus plus learning the arts is not cheap. but i was thinking, if you love doing what you do, the money doesn't matter rite? yaya, i'm just convincing myself. meh~ what should i do? 

anyways, here's my recent drawings. i'm so in love with FROZEN! and so obsessed with their songs! specially the "do you wanna build a snowman"! <3 nbsp="" p="">

drawings for valentines! used graffiti fonts for the wordings :) 

presenting one of my proudest piece! top: what i drew bottom: what my friend Yosh coloured using photoshop. 

amazing what ppl can do with technology nowadays huh? dayum! i seriously gotta learn that out!



u kno u love me 
coz i relly relly do, 
still do always will,
forever and ever, 
xoxo ♥♥