An Open Letter To My Ex: How A Best Friend Becomes A Stranger

Hey there, stranger.

It’s been a very long time, which I’m sure you’re aware of. I’d like to say that it was your decision alone to keep this distance, but I think we both know it was for the best. I’d like to say that I’m glad you are well, but as we both know I have absolutely no idea how you are. The one thing that can definitely be said is that when we cut ties, we leave no strand behind, but slice right through until we no longer remember how to find each other. It’s amazing to think that once we were inseparable, the best of friends.

You knew me inside and out, and I, you. We were there for each other in the best of times and through the most difficult of times. We definitely managed to put each other through hell on occasion, but when support was needed the most, support was given. Until, of course, that final day. I sometimes find myself wondering why we couldn’t stay in touch. Would it be so bad if we got together for coffee from time to time? Or if we gave each other a ring to see how the other was doing?

Using the phone to make calls has become archaic, but surely we could send a text to wish each other a happy birthday? Or a happy New Year? I mean, we’ve been through so much. You are a part of my life and there is nothing I can do to ever change that.

You can’t be forgotten because forgetting you would be like forgetting myself — impossible. But then again, maybe you are right. Maybe we are better off as far apart as possible. We know we aren’t right for each other. We know it would never work, and we know the friendship we have — we had — created a bond that would make slipping back into romance too easy. It would make repeating the same mistakes too likely, repeating the same heartbreak certain. That’s what it really comes down to: It’s not my heart that I’m worried about, but yours. Breaking my own heart would be my responsibility to bear, but I can’t once again be responsible for breaking yours.

So all that I can do is wish you the best. Wish you a great, bright, loving future. Wish you to find the lover of your dreams and to create a lifetime of your fantasies. I wish for you to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner. One who won’t drag you through the mud. One who you won’t feel the need to bury with guilt. I wish you all the best and although you will never read this, although we will never speak to each other again, and although you are out of my life forever, I wish you nothing short of happiness.

Never again to be yours, 

Your Lost Best Friend

*taken from elite daily.

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

Inspire. Dream. Believe.

Inspire. Dream. Believe. 

sometimes somethings are worth getting your hands all dirty. 

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

Pray for MH370

where are you? its been days, the whole world is looking for you. you can't just disappear into thin air, right..? :/

My prayers and thoughts goes out to those who are in mh370 and to your love ones!
hang in there. be safe. we'll get to you!

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

Kampar baybeh!

made a trip to kampar for wendy and alex's graduation last weekend. boy i seriously miss that place. so peaceful, so relax, so calm, so... much memories :/ but! it was a good trip.

graduation teddy

such nice scenery they have there over in kampar. :) minus the hot weather and the haze though :/ meh. its everywhere.. 

visited mr.confucious and mr Einstein. and as usual they were battling each other in a game of chess!

 the temple-rish university hall 

had a good chat with one of my fren liew who went to kampar with me. chatted about life, about work, people, and most importantly, future. when i kick back and think about it, i realised i kindda unconsciously blurted out whatever that has been worrying me, my plans for the future especially, which i've been avoiding lately. been telling liew to start planning and what not for his future, but here I am not doing a thing, but urging others, people surrounding me to do something, make a move, take the first step. that i hate myself for. gaah.. i gotta move myself outta the darning comfort zone, and aint no one's gonna help me in this. i gotta do this myself. and i need my friends called confidence, courage and determination.

be brave. be bold. live your dream.  

we're all in this together, are we not? ;)

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

Happy Birthday Mama Bear

Happy Mappy Birthday Mama Bear! :)

thank you for your unconditional love for me.
thank you for your constant guidance and support for me.
thank you for your care and protection all these while.
thank you for your prayers for me.
thank you for being my one in a million mama bear.

I love you, mama bear.

my happy ohana of bears 

I wish you, JESUS.

you know you love me,
coz i relly relly do,
stil do, always will,
forever and ever,
xoxo. ♥♥

i wanna get into the arts!

gaaah, like what the topic says, i really really really really really wanna get into the arts. teach me tell me how? i really wanna learn stuffs relating to drawing arts, graphics, illustrator, photoshop, animation, etc etc... but how? i don't even have the basic knowledge about this. and thus i would have to study to learn all these and at least get a degree in this line? and degree requires at least 3 years! am i too old for it? plus plus plus learning the arts is not cheap. but i was thinking, if you love doing what you do, the money doesn't matter rite? yaya, i'm just convincing myself. meh~ what should i do? 

anyways, here's my recent drawings. i'm so in love with FROZEN! and so obsessed with their songs! specially the "do you wanna build a snowman"! <3 nbsp="" p="">

drawings for valentines! used graffiti fonts for the wordings :) 

presenting one of my proudest piece! top: what i drew bottom: what my friend Yosh coloured using photoshop. 

amazing what ppl can do with technology nowadays huh? dayum! i seriously gotta learn that out!



u kno u love me 
coz i relly relly do, 
still do always will,
forever and ever, 
xoxo ♥♥

보고싶어 ~

보고시포  pogoshipo~

thank you thank you thank you. for all the moments we had together, the memories we created, the ups and downs we went through, the happy and sad moments together, and the many efforts u took to do things for me, just to plaster a smile on my face and make me happy. It doesn't matter if we're not together for valentines, but everyday, every single moment with you is a valentines day for me. and just having you is more than i can ask for. I'm forever grateful. Heres to another year of us, to our always, to our forever. :) i love you. 

"Thanking God that He gave you to me, you are all I prayed for and I love you deeply." - 1 Corinthians

u know you love me, 

coz i really really do, 

stil do, always will, 

forever and ever, 

xoxo. ♥♥